up and downs

Life's up and downs
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Gah, it was a great weekend. We met Stace & Mike for sushi and drinks on Friday, then went next door for drinks. There was a lot of laughing, and Pete ran into a couple of old friends while we were out.
Saturday, the guys played frisbee golf while we girls went shopping. After they got back, we had pizza and watched 'Juno'. Which was as good as I'd heard, and I had to buy the CD. I've had "Vampire" stuck in my head for the last two days.
Sunday we met up with Pete's Mom and brothers for dinner. I think my favorite part of the weekend was watching his Mom kick ass at wii bowling. She was awesome!!! And she's just one of the coolest women.

So yesterday I was sort of worn out from all the fun. We'd decided to buy a wii later this month since we were immediately addicted. I was getting ready to confirm the hotel & rental car for my sister's wedding which is coming up very quickly.

Pete walked in an hour early. I turned around to say "hi" and noticed his face. Knew immediately something was wrong, and knew what it was. Fuck.
He got laid off.

His boss (not the Owner, who'd made the decision) and Pete talked on the phone for a long time last night, which made Pete feel better. He knows it wasn't at all performance based. He knows why the decision was made. I guess that takes some of the sting out for him, but adds to the frustration. If the company had been run correctly, if his boss had any business sense, if suggestions they'd had were implemented ...

I guess we're both just in shock a little bit. I've spent all night making sure he knows that we'll be okay, that I have faith in him, that I know it's for the best (the job was really stressing him out), that he'll have a better job soon.
He applied for unemployment and put in a dozen resumes last night.
We're talking about health insurance options.

So I know things will be okay. This is a very temporary snag which'll only lead us to better things.

But today? It's kind of difficult. I think I'm coming out of the initial OHMAHGAWD-ness of it all and stressing a little bit. I just ... fuck. We were finally at a stage where it wasn't a struggle at all, y'know? Where we could go buy the groceries we wanted without thinking about it. We could go out with friends when we wanted to. Could buy some of the things we wanted for the apartment, and were planning on more of that.

*sigh*

I guess sometimes you just figure you've worked so hard you deserve a little bit of time to let your guard down and relax. And then life happens.

Man. That made me laugh. Melodrama, meet Jenni.

Because then I step back and realize I'm so fucking lucky to have the life I have, the life I'm building with him. So these little set backs? Forget them. In a year I'll barely remember how scary this was. But in a year, Pete and I will be stronger than ever.
And that's what matters.